A surprising addiction
Maybe just like you, I have had my challenges in life. I have made a lot of wrong decisions and I have even fallen into situations in my life where I was just overtaken by compulsion and irrational thoughts and behaviors. I am so grateful that I have been freed of those volatile, painful, dangerous thoughts and behaviors.
After years of continuing to pay attention and follow the will of the risen savior, Jesus Christ, I can embrace the verse in Romans 3:23 that really did not become a reality until about 10 years ago.
for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God – Romans 3:23
For most of my life I was always comparing myself to others and attempting to be better them all. Focus on the best characteristic of that person, this other persons behaviors and learn to do all the good things and be better than anybody else. Well, I guess I don’t have to tell you how that worked for me. It sounds funny, but really, that was my daily approach, and I know I am not the only one.
Then after coming to reality and finding out truth and taking many corrective actions in my life, it was just like an endless battle, wielding that sword and blocking spiritual assaults left and right. It was exhausting. I kept striving to quit doing what I knew I shouldn’t do, and try to apply this long list of things that I pulled out of the bible that I felt I needed to apply and implement. This went even to the part of priioritizing the areas I would serve in and the people I helped, or attempted to help. I was a me, me, me situation.
This morning I was thinking about “insanity”, doing the same thing over and over again, expecting a different result. That has been really obvious in the past in a variety of areas in my life, then it hit me….
I have been addicted to ignoring God’s will in my life
If you understand that statement in any way, that means in those situations I am not fully surrendered, that I live my life my way. I rely on my feelings, my decisions and take God’s input and give him thanks for some advice and go about my way. This was a huge insight to me. This is an addiction that can easily be overlooked and hidden. Some people claim it as independent, self-sufficient, but in reality it is un-surrendered pride.
It can be a very dangerous addiction and can go unnoticed and not addressed. There is help. Celebrate Recovery provides a way for all of us to realize we fall short of the glory of God. That we can go to a healthy, safe place and be honest about all of our hurts, habits and hang-ups. Our additions and compulsive behaviors do not always involve substance abuse.
Check out a Celebrate Recovery near you. You can find the nearest location on the Celebrate Recovery website (http://celebraterecovery.com) or if your stuck and don’t know where to start, drop me an email. firstname.lastname@example.org